In short, not too well. The last couple of days I seem to have entered a new area – I’m just mentally foggy and not really getting out of it during the course of the day. Combined with increasing pain and this leaving a bit of a drain on me physically means I think I’m going downhill, and I’m in an area I’ve not been before in terms of combination of physical, mental and emotional state.
I hope it’s just a blip and I can get back on top of things, but it’s becoming a struggle, which is quite the contrast to how I felt just a couple of days ago.
Oddly, when waking in the middle of the night, I felt clear-headed and full of energy and promise, and planned to do things today…. but the physical reality seems to be that I’m going the other way, and starting to lose the battle. Certainly I can see that my body is starting to change (not in a good way), and I think this is being reflected overall.
Sorry for the negativity, but thought it important to be honest/real at all points.
I’m not giving up.
